Hi! I'm Shay (Shayla, technically, but I prefer to be called Shay, for many reasons.) ( Here are some important things to know before friending me! )

If you still want to be on my flist after all that, you're probably completely nuts. Which happens to be my favorite kind of person, so just drop a comment and I'll add you!

Important Note: If you're just here looking for picspams, no worries, you don't have to friend me for those. They're all public. But if you want to stick around anyways, I'm happy to have you!

( And for your convenience, a handy list of my picspams! )

Last thing: If you're here friending me, you probably have some interest in Jac Vanek or Audrey Kitching. So I'm going to pimp out yinyangggg, the Jac and Audrey daily news community. All their updates in one convenient location! OKAY, PIMP OVER.

So bbs, Kala posted an awesome little Jac/Audrey picspam last night, and I happened to notice several of our new friends saying that they don't really know who they are. So! In this post, which I think I shall make into a sticky post at the top of my journal for all new friends to read, I'm going to include a small picspam with quotes, links to all my previous picspams/primer/thinky thoughts, and upload any mixes I've made for them. Think of it as like, my one stop shop for anything I've ever made that has to do with scene queens.

If you're not going to read the rest of this post, at the very least, read this: People who have been around here for awhile already know this, but I truly adore these girls for who they are as human beings. They're fucked up and they're insecure and they work hard. They're sweet and they're bitchy and they're beautiful. They're just girls. I'm not asking you to like them or care about them, but I won't hear any "God, she's so slutty/fat/thin/ugly/stupid" in my journal. Okay? Okay.

Now on to the fun stuff!

( Jac and Audrey: A Beginner's Guide )

( List of Picspams and Thinky Thoughts Posts )

( Fanmixes )

If you've made it this far, you may want to friend my community yinyangggg! It's basically my Jac and Audrey equivalent of icecreamhdaches. We update daily with all of Jac and Audrey's new photos, blogs, whatever, so you don't have to leave the comfort of your flist to find out what's going on with them. (This is particularly helpful with Jac, because lord, that girl updates on like six different websites.)

Please, please feel free to link me to any other positive Jac/Audrey posts or picspams you've seen so I can link them here.

I feel like there's so much more I could add to this post, and I probably will at some point. But for now, I'm done. MOSTLY BECAUSE MY TUMMY ACHES AND I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING. Nom nom delicious cookies.

I had to wake up at 8:30 yesterday (WHICH WAS A SATURDAY, IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW. And if you're unaware of when Saturday is, here is a link that can help you) to go to Providence (AN HOUR AWAY) for an art field trip to RISD (Rhode Island School of Design) museum.

AH HAH BUT I HAVE TRICKED YOU. Because it was not the downer I expected it to be, it was actually a fantabulous time! The weather was sheer perfection, that part of Providence is pretty much the most beautiful part of the city, and the RISD kids had an entire part of the street blocked off and were selling artwork and jewelery and shirts and pottery and all the kind of shit you expect art students to be making. (I found pictures of it on flickr! So freaking creative.) I wish I'd had money to spend, they were selling some awesome stuff. God, I wish I had any artistic talent at all. Seeing a school like that, the energy and the creativity? It makes me really, really dislike Salve. The classes I take are great, but there's no sense of community. None at all.

It also made me miss Providence. That city will always own a piece of my heart. My grandparents constantly talk about how glad they are that my dad and I are out of there, because Providence is just so dirty and dangerous. You know, because it's a city, and therefore not just filled with white people. Which is fucking stupid. My city is gorgeous and lively and diverse and I'd rather live there than the suburbs any day.

No one else in the world cares about this, but I'm picspamming Providence. Because I can. I stole all of these pictures from the internet, I don't have any of these photography skillz. ( this city's contagious )

Friends cut

It's truly nothing personal to those of you I cut, I just couldn't keep up with my flist anymore and I'm hoping to keep it down to people I've connected with or talk to a lot. If you want to talk to me about it, comments are screened, so feel free to leave one. I wish you all the best.

I FEEL LIKE I'M SPAMMING YOU GUYS WITH THIS SHIT KIND OF, BUT JUST IN CASE ANYONE HASN'T SEEN IT YET...

yinyangggg

YOUR SOURCE FOR ALL OF JAC AND AUDREY'S DAILY UPDATES!

It's friends only so we can keep a fairly bitch-free environment (well, we're hoping) so you'll have to friend it to see any of the updates. And if uh, any of you know anyone who might be interested in the community, if you could pimp it out? WE WOULD APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH.

Kala even made banners to pimp with! ( THEY ARE LITTLE, BUT I'M CUTTING THEM ANYWAYS )

UH...HEY GUYS. I took an accidental hiatus and abandoned you all! I'M SORRY. SOMETIMES I FAIL EPIC AMOUNTS.

And I have some new friends so that was really bad timing, I haven't really had a chance to get to know you yet and I'm already acting like an awful, spazzy friend. I'M SORRY. I'LL TRY TO DO BETTER.

I had a truly fantastic Thanksgiving, like...the best one in awhile, I legit had fun the entire time. My family is crazy but fun. Also, I was sleep deprived! This helps me be less socially awkward around family members! \o/ NOW I KNOW THE SECRET. And I dragged my dad to see Twilight on Friday (SECOND TIME AROUND, IT IS EVEN MORE LOLARIOUS AND DAZZLING) and he was amused. And would see the second one. I love my dad. (On Thursday, my four year old cousin was running around and saying he was a vampire, so my dad asked if he sparkled. BEFORE HE EVEN SAW THE MOVIE, MIND YOU. So much win.)

So uh, since I left y'all without warning, how about an Audrey picspam to make up for it? (KALA DID HER JAC ONE AND NOW I'LL DO AN AUDREY ONE. SEE HOW IT WORKS?)

( would you like the company or are you sick of me )

HAH HAH I FINISHED MY HOMEWORK IN A TIMELY FASHION. I've just been kicking ass and taking names today, apparently.

So in celebration, here's the snippet of my epic Jac/Audrey NaNo. IT WAS HARD TO PICK A PART TO SHARE, AND IT MIGHT SUCK A LOT. ALSO IT IS AS YET UNNAMED. BUT HERE YOU GO.

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Whatever. All Audrey knows is that Jac turns and smiles and something changes. Her hair is this ridiculous shade of blonde that Audrey’s been trying to achieve for the past like, eight months or something, but she’s pretty sure Jac’s is completely natural. Bitch.

( each day she begins she's always one day behind )

So I promised you bitches a spam, and you're getting a goddamn spam, alright?

IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SMALL, BUT THEN IT JUST KIND OF...EXPLODED. IDK.

( The theme is whatever Shay decided she wanted to include. )

Oh my god, bedtime for Shay. I don't even know what just happened.

This isn't very big or anything, but Jac posted this myspace blog and while Kala reposted it yesterday, I realize not everyone is friends with my bb. So here you go, with a small picspam to match.

( I can only see you when my eyes are closed )

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY bsidetales! I adore you Beth bb.

( So here is a picspam of cupcakes for you, on your day of birth! )

HI, I'M ABOUT TO RANT ABOUT SOMETHING STUPID NOW.

So Miley Cyrus did something kind of stupid and took some "sexy" pictures for her boyfriend (here) and people, of course, are being judgmental little assholes about it. "OMG SHE'S DISGUSTING" "WHAT A HO" etc.

I cannot tell you how much this angers me. Like, I just. Can't. I like Miley Cyrus and all, but even if I hated her this would piss me off intensely. Oh my god, a 15 year old girl took some generally tame pictures for her boyfriend! WHAT AN AWFUL ROLE MODEL. Fucking hell.

She's fifteen years old and that's young, yes. But you know what? I remember being fifteen. I remember being fifteen and being sexual. I don't think there's anything wrong with it. I don't think there's anything wrong with a high school girl exploring sexuality, as long as she's careful. Sex is fun. But I forgot, yes. Girls CAN'T be sexual. Miley Cyrus can't dare take private pictures of herself in a wet t-shirt, Audrey Kitching can't model in a bikini, Vanessa Hudgens can't take naked pictures of herself for her boyfriend. Because it's showing off your body. It's sexual. Slutty. Wrong. It sets a bad example, to be proud of your body. To want other people to see it. It's just like porn. Disgusting. Girls are supposed to be demure. No sex until marriage. Keep your legs closed, don't wear a low-cut top, what are people going to think about you?

I truly hate people sometimes. I hate double standards and I hate the instant hatred for any girl who isn't perfect and most of all, I HATE that this sort of thinking comes from people who I've generally liked in the past. What the actual fuck.

I'm listening to A Fever You Can't Sweat Out for the first time since like. March. I missed it way more than I thought I did!

So I was supposed to be cleaning my room today, but instead I accidentally went and saved about 300 more pictures of Audrey Kitching to my computer! OOPS. So now you get a small picspam!

( I can almost see the sky )

...it was a small picspam for ME anyways. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I'M LEFT UNSUPERVISED FOR THE DAY, I GUESS.

(I like how one of my first moves upon getting new friends *waves* is picspamming girls that half of fandom hates. WELCOME TO MY JOURNAL GUYS, I'M IN LOVE WITH SOME SCENE QUEENS.)

Everyone and their mother is posting about Pete and Ashlee today, and like, I have thoughts too but they're not that interesting and Kala pretty much expressed everything I've wanted to say. SO INSTEAD, I AM GOING TO POST ABOUT SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT! Age and bandom and why I sometimes feel incredibly uncomfortable being 18.

Because, okay. I'm 18 years old and I've gone to shows and been around livejournal people (some of them that I've seen at more than one show) and they've fully ignored me. And that really sucks. At the Panic show, even though I'd never met natacup82 before and didn't have her friended, I talked to her. She was from livejournal, and that's all I needed to know. Hell, I've made friends at shows who were most definitely not from livejournal. I can be socially awkward and awful at conversation sometimes, but I try. I want to meet new people of all ages and from everywhere in the world and just have an awesome time at concerts.

I don't know. It's partly my fault, I'm sure, that those LJ people ignored me. After all, I could have initiated the conversation too. But. It's hard to invite yourself into a circle of people talking. You don't know if they want you. So, situation reversed, I try to reach out and include people. Maybe that's just me.

And I can't help feeling that part of the reason that people don't want to talk to me is because, hey, I look young. I'm wearing eyeliner. I must just be another scene kid. Never mind that I clearly know other people from fandom. And that makes me so incredibly angry, to think that people could judge me that way, to look at me and think "Yeaaaah...no. Not interested in talking to her".

I'm not sorry for being 18, I'm not sorry that I think it's fun to wear eyeliner. I'm definitely not sorry that I throw myself into concerts and dance around and sing my heart out and act like a complete fool. I'm enjoying myself. Try it sometimes, especially if you're going to shell out the money to go to a concert for a band you supposedly care about. It's disappointing, because I always assumed bandom people were the best kinds of fans around. Thanks for proving me wrong! Give me the teenies that love with all of their hearts any day. I'd rather see tiny 12 year olds in ridiculously awful homemade shirts bouncing around and clearly having the time of their lives than see people standing around acting ashamed to be there. That's not being a fan. That's being a douche.

I have to go make dinner now, so I'm done ranting....for the moment. But, feel free to tell me I'm wrong, tell me I'm overreacting and taking it personally. I don't know. Maybe I am. Discussion time!

Everyone and their mother is doing this meme. I am incredibly interested in doing it, so y'all better give me some lists.

Comment to this post with a top five you would like to see me post about (with pictures, if applicable), and I will post it in my next some future post. Feel free to give me multiple lists to do!

Ask me about my top five fruits for all I care. Anything. You know I love randomness.

(I'M JUST SO BORED, YOU GUYS. I'M THISCLOSE TO WRITING POETRY ABOUT PETE WENTZ'S FACE. IT'S UNFORTUNATE. Uh, the poetry. Not his face.)

HAHAHAHAHAHA I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO PLAY, I LAUGHED REALLY HARD AT THIS.



THE TINYPIC LINK LINKED TO THIS:



SORRY, NO CUT, THIS IS TOO AMUSING.

Oh wow.

So, I'm going to make this as brief as I can, but I just wanted to spread this around.

A blog entry of Keltie Colleen's in which she talks about being harassed by supposed Panic fans. It's, to be completely honest, sickening. Whatever you may think of Keltie, whether you love her or hate her, she's just a girl. And she doesn't deserve this. Christ, you guys, she's lost a job because of the hatred being put out by these people.

And because other people will always say it much better than I can, here and here are some posts about Keltie and this situation.

I just. I love this girl with all my heart, I truly do. And all she's ever done is dance, exist, and love Ryan Ross. That's it. You know, I see a lot of people saying she's only with him for the fame, but fuck that. No one would put up with this abuse unless they were in love.

And I just want to thank my friends list for being better than this. Hell, just for being normal, mature, decent people. I have friends who dislike her, which is completely fine by me! Different strokes and all that. But the blind hatred, and the idea that it is completely okay to harass her and hope for her death just because she's dating a dude in a band? Yeah. It isn't okay. And I'm just so thankful that I've surrounded myself with you guys, because I would honestly throw up if I had someone like this on my friends list. Fuck.

This is it, you guys. I'm finally done. I'm so proud of it. I love these girls so freaking much, and I wanted to do them justice. I hope I did.

( WELCOME TO PART TWO OF MY GIGANTIC SCENE QUEENS PRIMER THING! )

Oh my god, you guys, I cannot even tell you. I have over 2000 pictures of these three girls saved to my computer, so this was basically a HUGE FREAKING PROJECT. Picking pictures, trying to remember to give information, etc. etc. IT IS TWO PARTS. THAT'S HOW GIANT IT IS. But like, this is only part one, and it still took two entries to fully post?

Here we go.

( Welcome to the Scene Queen Primer. If you've ever wondered just who the fuck Audrey, Jac, and Hanna Beth are, here's more than you'll ever need to know. )