NOW (INTIMATELY) MARRIED TO GOD. JEALOUS? (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} forcedmovement) wrote,@ 2009-01-07 01:53:00 |
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| Entry tags: | audrey kitching, fanmix, jac/audrey |
promise not to (try not to) fuck with your mind
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//01.Stuck in America - Sugarcult
Today, I changed
It's too late
Cause everyone stayed the same
I'm gone, so long
Break out, cause I'm better off on my own
Everybody's talking about blowing up the neighborhood
Everybody's gonna break it up today
Everybody's talking about blowing up the neighborhood
Runnin’ just to get away
//
I AM DONE BEING NICE. THE ONLY THING I REGRET ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL IS NOT SHOWING YOU PATHETIC FUCKS HOW MUCH HATE I HAVE FOR YOU.
*
i burn bridges and i like it.
//02.Hit Me – The Sounds
Wake me up, I'm about to give it up
Hey hurry up, lately it's been hard enough
Try to shut me up, when you know you should wish me luck
And you could beat me up, I'm heading for the top
Hit me hard. Hit me right between the eyes
I wanna see the stars, hit me, hit me!
//
im on a bad streak right now..ill get over it.
i do what i want and dont care about consequences.. i dont like it.
i need to stop.
*
oh the self destructive things i do for entertainment.
*
DEADKING70: your more of a soldier than any dude ive ever met in my entire life
robotlove101: hahaha how
DEADKING70: your always gettin your face busted up, and u just eat it up and laugh about it. your awsome
//03.Promise – Eve 6
I spit and stutter, stuff and clutter
worries in my worried corner:
maladjusted, just untrusted, rusted,
sometimes brilliant, busted thoughts.
Think I'll stay for a while
I'm intrigued and I'm
red as a newborn, white as a corpse.
I promise not to-try not to-fuck with your mind.
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine.
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye.
I promise not to-try not to-let you down.
//
humankind cannot stand very much reality...there are millions of people on this earth and a hand full of shitty c-list bands. none of this will ever matter.
*
i can kick your ass if i need too, but i would much rather love you.
//04. Celebrity Skin – Hole
When I wake up in my make-up
It's too early for that dress
Wilted and faded somewhere in Hollywood
I’m glad I came here
With your pound of flesh
No second billing cause you're a star now
Oh, Cinderella
They aren't sluts like you
Beautiful garbage, Beautiful dresses
Can you stand up or will you just fall down
//
shoot for hot topic this week. mexi pretty and doll.
i dont understand how i wake up some days..
it doesnt make any sense that i should be capable to.
*
i have worked my ass off the last two years and couldnt be happier then where i am right today.
//05. Portions for Foxes – Rilo Kiley
I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
But just being around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
And the bad dreams lead me to calling you
And I call you and say, "C'MERE!"
And it's bad news
Baby, I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news
Because you're just damage control
For a walking corpse like me
Like you
//
hes the 555 to my 666
*
you cant kill me im already inside you.
get use to seeing me... im not going anywhere
//06. Take It To Manhattan – Straylight Run
Take it to Manhattan 'cause I don't want it.
Sell it to someone who can't live without it.
You made it for the masses, it passed unnoticed.
Dead somewhere in Kansas,
Now I've had it up to here with,
I've had enough of all of these songs
Of self-imposed unhappiness.
//
everyone i have ever had the pleasure of meeting never caesus to amaze me when they become artifical..i just smile and play the game. i figure being you until you die is punishment enough.
//07. Something To Do With My Hands – Her Space Holiday
You know it saves me to think even for a little while
I owned the set of shoulders that you came to rely on
Like in that movie theater when you whispered in my ear
I almost didn't make it
This has been my hardest year
Your job is killing you faster than a cancer could
So now you're giving up like they always said you would
You've got that old map out now and you found the farthest town
You hope that if you're lucky this is where you'll settle down
I don't care where you move
I don't care if it's far
All that I ask is that I know where you are
In case our timing is right
In case you need more from me
Than a bit of advice
Or a tongue full of sympathy
//
we have established that we are best friends with the same insane mind
*
ahh jac i miss you so much :( soon i need you <3 im always here for you and always will be
//08. Oboes Bleat and Triangles Tink – Say Hi
Silly girl, we can't just stop
But we can do something else if you want
We can fly a kite in a lightning storm,
but we can't stop this thing from what it's gonna be
Silly girl, that's just the way it is
How atoms turn to planets eventually
And oboes will bleat and the triangles tink,
but we can't stop this thing from what it's gonna be.
//
this week could be the first week of the rest of our lives.
finally starting what we were ment to do.
*
god i love you so much. we will dominate. and i would bey mt life on it.
//09. Suicide Blonde – Jack’s Mannequin
I saw the post office from the book
On my way to the west side
Going broke but I'm feeling good
I brought my girl to keep me with it
She's a suicide blonde
Dyed by her own hand, ooh.
Suicide blonde.
She's part of the big plan,
She's part of the big plan
//
i wouldnt change a thing in my life if you payed me.
*
If I fall asleep with my TV on, you would change it to the Weather Channel instead of shutting it off. If I turn my back on you, you will tell me you would still give me the world as long as I'm there to take it. We go for weeks without talking to each other but when we see each other it's as if we have always been friends. You would get in the bubble bath with me even though we didn't fit inside and we were cold because there wasn't enough water. If I am sad or lonely and need someone to talk to, you will wake me up at 3am and invite me over and cook for me. Your favorite time of the day is when I take my make up and put my hair up before I go to sleep because that is when I look the most beautiful you would say.
//10. Anything, Anything – Dramarama
I'm so sick of you tonight
You never stay awake when I get home
Is something wrong with me?
Is something wrong with you?
I really wish I knew wish I knew wish I knew
I'll give you candy, give you diamonds, give you pills
I'll give you anything you want--
hundred-dollar bills
I'll even let you watch the shows you wanna see
Because you marry me marry me marry me
Marry me marry me marry me
//
today was just a reminder that its real and there to fuck you up
*
if you talk too much my head will explode
//11. Maybe, This Time – Ok Go
You must have mastered this
The fragile art of a good excuse
The little things that get you to believe
that get you to believe
So listen, I’m not trying to prove anything at all here
But don’t you think that maybe, this time, you were wrong?
//
its not your fault that youre always wrong
*
i know that you know that i dont back down to no one
//12. Wake Up Exhausted – Tegan & Sara
i hated this city
before you came here
so let go
and move on
we're strangers
we're not friends
i hate this
and i hate them
this city's exhausted
and it's wound up
soon to be a place
that's just filled up
and i find out
that you're angry
and you're sorry
you ever met me
//
monsters are everywhere in my house
*
im not human.
i hate them.
//13. All Hail the Heartbreaker – The Spill Canvas
I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
with words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up
So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't
affect your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door
//
i use too stay awake as long as possible before i eventually passed out because i have the worst dreams every night.. now i look forward too them.
//14. Not A Pretty Girl – Ani DiFranco
i am not an angry girl
but it seems like i've got everyone fooled
every time i say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling
and i am sorry
i am not a maiden fair
and i am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere
and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally i agree with them
trouble is you gotta have yourself an alternate plan
and i have earned my disillusionment
i have been working all of my life
and i am a patriot
i have been fighting the good fight
//
best thing i can say is never let anyone step on you or even think of treating you of anything more the worth. people confuse arrogant and conceited with pride..and ill tell you what.. i have a god damn colassal amount of fucking pride.
*
i am way to busy to give a shit about anyone elses drama base life. but i can tell you this... i will stick up for myself till the day i die for pride sake. if that makes me a bitch.. then so be it.. but answer me this.. if im a bitch for sticking up for myself because you attack me with random slander for no reaosn.. what does that make you?
//15. All My Friends – Counting Crows
Caught some grief from a falling leaf
As she tumbled into the dirty ground
And said I should have put her back there if I could
Well everyone needs a better day
And I'm tryin' to find me a better way
To get through the things I do and the things I should
All my friends and lovers
Will leave me alone
To try to have a little fun
One way or another
I just wish I had known
To go out walking in the sun
To find out if you were the one
//
everyone leaving and dieing on me is the only stagnant..
the only constant i have in my life.
we make our own ghosts and give them permission to haunt us
//16. The First Single (Cause a Scene) – The Format
So let’s make a list of who we need
It’s not much, if anything
Make a list of who we need
And we’ll throw it away
‘Cause we don’t need anyone
No, we don’t need anyone
You know me
Or you think you do
You just don’t seem to see
I’ve been waiting all this time
To be something I can’t define
So let’s cause a scene
Clap our hands and stomp our feet or something
Yeah, something
I just gotta get myself over me
And I hate what I’ve become
//
i guess if i wasnt so focused and busy i might be able to understand why people are so consumed with hating others for living there own lives. i hold no ones hand .. no one held mine and i turned out ok.
being dependant on anything is a curse.
//17. Dirty Business – The Dresden Dolls
To all the ones who tried the most was I supposed to cheer your efforts
Sorry that I chose so poorly
Golly gee am I the poster girl
…
To all the ones that hated me the most, a toast
you really had me going for second
I was nervous
boy am I the poster girl
for some suburban sickness
Better keep a healthy distance
Now its up to you know what to do
it's pretty dirty business
//
everyone spends so much time worrying about the past and future that the now is practicly not even a time anymore. im one to talk i should take my own advice i live such a fast pace life i cant even sit in a resturant for 5 min after i finish eating always go go go. you only live once dont waste your time with others if they dont make you happy and dont think about yesterday because you will never go back.. unnless of course you find the fluxcapasitor then call me.
//18. Look Up – Stars
Your boy is like a memory
With some sense of touch and a melody
Your girl she's a renegade
A hurricane that keeps you there, safe
Hurricane that keeps you there, safe
You're cold maybe you just miss the sun
You fall feeling like it's just begun
So far keeping it together's been enough
But look up the rain is falling
Looks like love
//
Im learning to take one day at a time... puts everything into prospective. The universe will take care of the rest.
*Note: the best way to listen to these mixes is to put them, alternating song by song, on a playlist. The contrast is too awesome. (In our combined!mix we started with Stuck in America, followed by Watch the Sky, but you can do it the other way and it'll make sense, I'm sure.)
