I want to talk about bandslash a little right now. More importantly, how I FEEL about bandslash. Because it's making me so happy, you guys, but there's something that isn't, and I want to discuss all of it.

Yes, this is really long. No, you don't have to read it. But I have to say it.

I love the new Fall Out Boy video so very much. I think it's important and I think it's beautiful. I love these boys with EVERYTHING I have. I love that they're trying to do something good with their music, not just for their fans, but for the world. I LOVE THEIR MUSIC IN GENERAL. I truly think it's amazing. I love that you can actually hear the growth from EOWYG to IOH, both with the music and with Patrick's vocals. I love Pete's lyrics, and that you can find them sprinkled in his blog entries throughout the years. The lyrics come from his life. And yes, I find them poetic, and yes, they mean just about everything to me. Weeks that I don't listen to From Under the Cork Tree, I feel a little emptier inside. Infinity on High is, to me, the best record they've produced, but From Under the Cork Tree is what saved my life. I don't mean it saved me from death, I mean it saved me from not living. From being numb, and from not trying, and from not caring. It changed me and saved me and it'll never stop being my favorite.

I love the feeling, when you go to a Fall Out Boy show, the energy that's just tingling all around, ready to explode. And it does. When these four tiny boys get on stage, they're not so tiny anymore. Joe and Andy have PRESENCE, they're rocking out and giving it their all, and I have never seen Patrick look so confident, or Pete look so happy, as they look when they're on stage.

I love them all, so very very much, and THEY love each other so very very much. So what I don't get is, how there are Fall Out Boy fans that hate Pete.

( They don't even know what it is to be a fan. Y'know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts.  )

I didn't know where I was going when I started this entry, but now that it's done, I can see what it became. It's a love note. To Pete. ♥

Oh god, guys. I spent at least six hours....no, not even, EIGHT hours on this thing, and I didn't get past Fall Out Boy yet. So, uh, this is coming in like, four parts.

This is picspam mixed with facts and downloads for my inductees to bandslash, orangesky33 and sensations. For anyone who's been wondering what the HELL I've been talking about lately, this is a good time to click. (And for anyone who wants to see pictures of adorable boys. Really, who wouldn't?)

( Part 1: Fall Out Boy )

Alright, look. As much as I love these boys for their personalities and looks and love for each other, at the end of the day, it’s all about the music. The music is what started the obsession, it's what gets me through the day sometimes. Have some downloads.

( Albums, bonus tracks, covers, etc. )

Tune in tomorrow when Pete meets William Beckett and makes a decision that will FOREVER ALTER HIS FUTURE. Or something.

WHERE ARE THESE KOALA PICTURES COMING FROM?



God, Joe Trohman. It's kind of sad how in love I am with EVERYONE in this fandom. Seriously. Everyone.

Also, where the FUCK is my Pete Wentz/koala pic? *glares at universe*

I had so never seen this video before, but it is awesome. Why are they doing this to me? Everytime I think I've finally settled on a favorite Panic! boy, someone has to do something adorable and send me into a headspin. IF I EVER SEE THEM LIVE MY HEAD IS GOING TO EXPLODE.

Panic! At the Disco - JWalk and Brendon

*sigh*

In other news, I got locked out of the house for a full hour yesterday. Thank god for iPods and good weather.

ETA: AHHH OKAY. I might be the only person in the world to find this cute, but here is Patrick signing autographs while WEARING A BACKPACK WITH THE CHEST STRAP ACTUALLY STRAPPED. It's so adorably geeky. *snuggles*

Aieeeeeeeeee! So psychodragon82 just posted this AMAZING picture. And I have to spread it around, I do. It just....like, you know when you looked at Ryan Ross with a koala and spontaneously squeed? And you know how Patrick Stump is made of things like sunshine and marshmallows and puppies? CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE IF PATRICK POSED WITH A KOALA?

Now you don't have to.



The koala is so freaking content. And also, maybe winking at me. I feel a bit like I'm being mocked, for he has a Patrick and I don't. Koalas are bitchy, y'all, when they get to pose with pretty boys.

Sometimes, I look at my new life as a bandslash enthusiast and think, "WTF, self? Have you lost your marbles ENTIRELY?"

But then I look at pictures of, oh, Patrick, for instance, and I spit Pop Tarts out at the screen, and say Fuck completely involuntarily, and I forget why I ever hated myself. HIS FACE IS SO SMOOSHABLE. I don't even know.





And, okay, I'll throw a Pete in here too. This picture is ALL OVER the place in this fandom, and you know what? That's perfectly fine by me. I can look at this picture every single day and it will still make my heart glow.



Oh, boys.